LIFE THAT SPEAKS IN THE DARKNESS
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. - John 1:1
Today’s Gospel begins not with instructions but with presence. Prior to providing answers, clarity, or strength, there exists the Word—alive, relational, and already among us. Over the past year, this passage has resonated with me during moments when life felt burdensome, uncertain, or fragile. It serves as a reminder that my life, as well as every life, is not defined by achievements, independence, or physical capabilities, but by Christ Himself.
Living with cerebral palsy has heightened my awareness of how easily societal measures of worth focus on ability rather than intrinsic value. There have been occasions when I have felt frustrated by my limitations or fatigued by the barriers I encounter. Nonetheless, John's words in today’s Gospel gently challenge that perspective. Life itself originates from Christ. My dignity is a gift freely bestowed and is unshaken by any limitations. Even when I feel invisible, misunderstood, or excluded, the light of Christ persists—steadfast, unwavering, and shining beyond opposition.
This profound truth became intimately personal during Eucharistic Adoration a couple of months ago as I brought my questions, fears, and longing for clarity before the Lord. During my mystical, intimate conversation with the Lord, I did not receive the answers I anticipated. Instead, I was invited to trust, to remain attentive, and to open my heart fully. The Word, who spoke creation into existence, appeared more concerned with my willingness to remain present with Him than with certainty. At that moment, I understood that light does not always eradicate darkness; at times, it merely shines within it, illuminating even the most delicate or concealed aspects of life. I observed this particularly in the quietness of my heart, in the tension between longing and patience, and in the gentle reassurance that I am not alone.
Today’s Gospel affirms that Christ’s presence precedes understanding. The Word continues to speak life into circumstances where answers remain in development, reminding me that I am upheld, known, and accompanied.
Where in my life is Christ inviting me to trust His light, even without clear answers—and how might I stay present with Him in that space, allowing His life to guide me forward?
Sue Do