DARE TO TRUST
"In my doubt, I am called to believe." - Anonymous
I’ve always been the kind of person who knows how to ‘fully' trust God to help me realize my dreams once I have figured out the specifics of what I really want; I have an idea of how to get there with some loose timelines. I would leave enough wiggle room for God’s plan which meant it could get delayed or morph into something slightly different but more or less be what I expected. This approach generally works out pretty well for me. There is some logic and plan to satisfy the skeptical mind and some wiggle room for faith to do some magic. And yet, with today’s reading, I feel invited to have absolute faith in dreams I don’t dare to think about. Desires that seem too unreal and abstract. Dreams I cannot have a human plan for. Dreams I cannot put a timeline on because there are too many uncertainties.
I struggle to have that level of trust in God. It’s painful to even think about some of my deep desires because I feel that I'm opening myself to the possibility of absolute disappointment. I would rather just ignore them altogether than to acknowledge their existence; yet today, I feel called to prepare for those dreams. Prepare for it as if I know they will be realized. Prepare, even if it makes no sense to the logical mind.
And so, I plan to prepare and make room to welcome the unknown gifts God has for me. Not to limit it with my biased imagination and let God unfold his plan slowly, just simply rejoicing as each phase reveals itself.
What is God calling you to prepare for? Do you have the courage to prepare for your deep desires being fulfilled?
Matilda Bernard